It's weird. Lately I've been going through a point in my life where, even though I don't know details, I'm coming to find what I actually want out of my life.
I think the most influential reason that made me rethink everything I once knew, is coming face to face with the fact that there are things that you simply cannot control. A lot of times we feel we know or suppose something and act according to that idea. Experience has taught me that one should never assume something, should never overreact or make decisions based on what one thinks is happening on the other end. The hard thing is that, because we now live in an 'overcommunicative world' (that barely communicates, at least what is most important, the truth) we take every post, tweet, comment, emoji, as a 'sign' and as we favorite, retweet, like, or share other's publications we too (even if subconsiously) believe we are sending a specific message; we're want them to remember us, to know we think of them, etc. All I know is that we should start saying these things instead of throwing lost arrows at the wind. It's simple, you want to talk: call or write, you want to see them: call or write, COMMUNICATE with actual words. It's simple but risky, I know. It's scary. It's terrifying. From personal experience, I believe that when we actually take that jump and speak about how we honestly feel or think, regardless of the outcome, we feel that we have dond the right thing and are at peace, even if we choose to believe otherwise.
Also, I have come to the realization that one of things that make me happy and excited about life is traveling whether it's alone or with incredible, trustful and loving people, traveling is something that just builts me up, puts you in a place where you must learn and break the inercia that usually controls us; breaking that wall we've built to not only feel confortable but safe. Personally, I feel the heart of life is evolving, doing things you wouldn't normally, saying 'yes' to what intimidates you and 'no' when you're in your right to.
Nothing feels better than sharing and connecting with other people.
It's scary for me admiting that I've come to peace with things that weeks ago I believed to work in a certain way. I admit that I have come to peace with the idea that maybe that one 'ex' is not the person you need, and that trying to retap those feelings at this particular momment is just not the right thing. It is inevitable feeling down or hurt every now and again when it comes to love and it's letdowns, but that's life and it is what it is; the best thing you can do is learn from it. With that said, I'd like to conclude by admiting that I'm ok with things not working out as I thought they should and that if he is honestly happy, then good for him. I can't wait to find somebody who simply blows me away.
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