There used to be a time, not too long ago, when I would wish for somebody everytime my eyes landed on '11:11' on the clock. There was a time when I used to be the first to say 'hello' and the last to say 'goodnight'. There used to be a time when I'd just call to hear a voice, to hear a laugh, to say 'I miss you', to kiss goodbye. There used to be a time when my eyes would only find you in the crowd, when everyone else just simply faded out. There was a time when I didn't care to sacrifice my time, when I preferred your decisions over mine. Shit, there were even times when I couldn't get you off my mind not even when I wanted to run you over after every green light.
There were different times when I did everything for someone and I'm not sure now if they did the same or lied.
I guess I've learned that it's not about what you get but what you give because at the end of the day it's the one thing you will never, ever doubt. Fuck words, they're easy and cheap. Fuck lies, they're coward and they're selfish. Fuck every single time someone called you their mistake.
Live in what you have now, who you know now and what your gut yells now. Ride or die; live your life, be kind, generous, love with all your might. Love like crazy, love real sexy. Live the life you've always wanted and never let someone tell you that you're not wanted. Be you, be blue, be happy, maybe even sing too.
Do what you want, live how you want, love how you'd like to be loved. And fear, well that's just the fuel, that's just the means to an undescribable end.
N.