I feel like it's been a long time since I've actually written something. The last couple of months have been surreal for so many different things.
I guess the most important thing that I've learned during this time is how the heart of life works. And also, how people actually work and react in this day and age.
I've spent months working on my graduation project in order to get my degree and through the process I realized how capable and commited I can be towards something. Even though I worked, did internahips and investigated/wrote the project I didn't feel stressed or running out of time. Funny enough I managed everything in a way that I couls actually sleep at night. Needless to say it has all be an incredible experience that is finally coming to an end.
With this chapter being finished comes the rest of my life which is definetly overwhelming. I start to think a lot about what to do next, what's the right step or what do I actually want. It's interesting how I just can't figure that out just yet. All I know is that I need and deserve some time off; I need to be able to do things without being preassured and without timelines. I need to have some time to do things for me and not just because I must.
I guess life does things in a very peculiar way. It teaches you about the people you thought you knew in momments that sometimes are not the best but also, lucky for us, gives you a little bit of something thats gets you through it all. It would be extremely clichè for me to say that it all works out the way it's supposed to but that's actually the case.
Years ago I would fight for having things my way and I would work myself to the bone for other people rather than for myself. Now, it's all smooth, it all has a rythim and a way of moving along. At the end of the day we only have ourselves and that's the person that we have to be at peace with. You lie in bed and think about all the choices you made that day or week and then think of other possible things you could have done (if you feel you messed up somehow) or you jusy take away the good things, the lessons and the eye-opening situations that you experienced and go to bed, peacefully.
There's a big difference between being true to others and to yourself. Personally I believe that to be the first you must always, no matter the case, be true to yourself. No good thing comes from saying or doing things to/with others to maintain a reputation because yeah, people may think you're 'cool', 'honest' or 'loyal' but when you're lying in your bed it eats you up. If we're not true in everyhing we do, we'll end up hurting ourselves even more than the rest of the world. And shit, the rest of the world have their own shoes to walk in and everybody knows that's something you can't just change.
Growing up is more than age, school grade or level. It is being able act and take responsibility for what you've done, being able to say you did a good or a bad job. Growing up is being able to take responsabilities for the choices we make every single day. I know it sounds hard but it's only one day at a time.
N.
I guess the most important thing that I've learned during this time is how the heart of life works. And also, how people actually work and react in this day and age.
I've spent months working on my graduation project in order to get my degree and through the process I realized how capable and commited I can be towards something. Even though I worked, did internahips and investigated/wrote the project I didn't feel stressed or running out of time. Funny enough I managed everything in a way that I couls actually sleep at night. Needless to say it has all be an incredible experience that is finally coming to an end.
With this chapter being finished comes the rest of my life which is definetly overwhelming. I start to think a lot about what to do next, what's the right step or what do I actually want. It's interesting how I just can't figure that out just yet. All I know is that I need and deserve some time off; I need to be able to do things without being preassured and without timelines. I need to have some time to do things for me and not just because I must.
I guess life does things in a very peculiar way. It teaches you about the people you thought you knew in momments that sometimes are not the best but also, lucky for us, gives you a little bit of something thats gets you through it all. It would be extremely clichè for me to say that it all works out the way it's supposed to but that's actually the case.
Years ago I would fight for having things my way and I would work myself to the bone for other people rather than for myself. Now, it's all smooth, it all has a rythim and a way of moving along. At the end of the day we only have ourselves and that's the person that we have to be at peace with. You lie in bed and think about all the choices you made that day or week and then think of other possible things you could have done (if you feel you messed up somehow) or you jusy take away the good things, the lessons and the eye-opening situations that you experienced and go to bed, peacefully.
There's a big difference between being true to others and to yourself. Personally I believe that to be the first you must always, no matter the case, be true to yourself. No good thing comes from saying or doing things to/with others to maintain a reputation because yeah, people may think you're 'cool', 'honest' or 'loyal' but when you're lying in your bed it eats you up. If we're not true in everyhing we do, we'll end up hurting ourselves even more than the rest of the world. And shit, the rest of the world have their own shoes to walk in and everybody knows that's something you can't just change.
Growing up is more than age, school grade or level. It is being able act and take responsibility for what you've done, being able to say you did a good or a bad job. Growing up is being able to take responsabilities for the choices we make every single day. I know it sounds hard but it's only one day at a time.
N.